Speak loudly

I didn't remember how good it was before, than i get crushed and now man....first sight love seems like another heart smash because i know whats coming...rejection.
Every week, every hour. I'm drowing on the honey of your eyes. I can't figure out their color..but its beautiful and i love. And your mouth...so kissable. Your voice.. so soft and low. Your body...so tall and "strongly big" next to mine. Like you can pull me to the next classroom and just kiss me softly with the sound of our hearts. I want your kindness and time. Your hugs and love. Because you have mine. And nowadays its hard to find such pure feelings. I guess. I want shake your shoulders and scream "speak loudly oh fucking god", hold your hands and explain that I just sounds so stupid and looks like i don't want to be your partner because you make me insanely shy and nervous. Nobody makes me feel like this before. Not that i remember and if i don't remember it's because it didn't happened.
Just let me introduce you the the world, take you from this shell. Put you out of this medicine books for some minutes to enjoy the life full of love and care. SORRY. Sorry for falling in love for you, sorry that Abel like to put us in pair, sorry for dreaming with you and look everyday to that little "Hulk Smash" that you drew in my book   this is what i have to say, because anything else that I probably say will ruin our semestrer together. Sorry for my english mistakes too.